Ash

2010-03-16T22:43:00.000+08:00

Rest assured my angels
Will catch my tears
Walk me out of here
I'm in pain

2010-03-08T23:02:00.001+08:00

i feel like i'm the liability of the family. fuck

this time was different,
felt like i was just a victim
& it cut me like a knife

2010-03-08T01:15:00.003+08:00

i no longer remember how i fall asleep, probably exhaustion from all that thinking.

i wanna heal, i wanna feel what i thought was never real
i wanna let go of the pain i've felt so long
i wanna find something that i've wanted all along

just stuck, hollow and alone
& the fault is my own

2010-03-06T02:30:00.001+08:00

Too many questions, too little time.
Nothing's right, I'm torn.

I wanna run away,
never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth,
instead of wondering why

2010-03-04T20:19:00.001+08:00

have faith, not fear

2010-03-01T04:43:00.001+08:00

Instead of trying to sleep, I ended up lying on my bed and using the iPhone app to find good food in singapore. Look at the time now. FML.

2010-03-01T03:26:00.003+08:00

results will be out this FRIDAY. have been thinking about it almost everyday, or rather, feeling scared, unsure, anxious, upset, afraid, whatever. i guess my fate has more or less been decided. i should just leave everything to God. have a little faith Ash, you're on God's perfect plan =)

i have been staying up till 4-5am the past week which is really bad, coupled with the higher probability that we will go for supper. this is madness. I NEED TO GET BACK MY FITNESS!!

4 more days..

every moment lasts forever,
when you feel you've lost your way
what if my chances were already gone,
i started believing that i could be wrong
could you give me one good reason,
to fight and never walk away?

2010-02-26T04:04:00.003+08:00

Sometimes why you feel like everything is going against you and nothing you do seems right, you just wanna run away.

I realized I love to blame the whole world except myself when things go wrong. Maybe, I'm the mistake.

2010-01-31T02:33:00.003+08:00

i'm really envious how some people can have such good luck (no offence here, it's a good thing actually, trust me) with important or valuable things like say TOTO, 4D or in my context, results. i have known friends who are always the first few to complain after sitting for a difficult paper and yet they still manage to get surprisingly good grades which even leave them dumbfounded.

HOW TO BE LUCKY? I ALSO WANTTTTTTTT!! =/

at this rate, i'd probably have been admitted into IMH at least 3 times by March.

2010-01-29T00:58:00.000+08:00

i just need some support

2010-01-28T15:44:00.003+08:00

if only there is a type of computer which we can plug directly into our brains so that our thoughts can flow through and allow it to blog for us, wouldn't that be great?
sometimes, i find it agonizingly hard just to translate the simplest of thoughts into words. words fail me, absolutely.

just the other day, i went into NUS website to have a look at the admission criteria for some courses. i was just being curious and of course didn't have any high hopes. a link popped up which gave a table of the 10th and 90th percentile of grades for the 2008 UAE (university admission exercise). i was dumbfounded. ALL the courses had 90% students who entered with at least 3 As. how in the blue hell am i gonna compete with such people? oh my goodness God Save the Queen, please help me :(

sighhhh :/

2010-01-13T23:06:00.002+08:00

it's really ironic how we always have a never-ending 'to do' list before our exams but the moment we finish our last paper, we suddenly find ourselves having so much time such that we don't know where to start.

oh wells, first thing first, HAPPY NEW YEAR!! i know it's awfully late to say that, even my birthday has already passed -.-, but what a year it has been. i sent off my grandpa, who's death anniversary coincides with chris's bday, my aunt and a close friend. though there weren't many positives to take away, i still strongly believe that God has put new people in my live for a reason and i will continue to trust in him for the path that he has set for me.

on the contrary, i had an awesome 21st!! the pictures, though, are not with me at the moment. i will try and collate it from the respective photographers that helped me. thanks dad, mum, bros, friends and family for such a wonderful and memorable birthday celebration. i hope that you guys had a good time too, not to mention good food =DD

there have been some pleasant surprises this year already and the days ahead certainly looks good. congrats hil on scoring 12 points! next up : feb 10 ORD LOH!!

2009-12-22T00:43:00.006+08:00

BOO!

what a year it has been and it is December again. time really flies when you are enjoying yourself, or rather in my case, when you're so fully occupied. it has been one hell of a ride for me this year, retaking my A's while being the only lifeguard available in camp at the moment (cause my dear understudy is not here yet :@). i have to admit that at times it is tough to balance both, coupled with the countless night classes i have to attend. although it may seem as a struggle but i really think it is a blessing in disguise, another opportunity from God for redemption and i'm keeping my fingers tightly crossed that i have made the most of it.

nonetheless, the time is here again for thanks giving and season greetings again. i think i love christmas trees, i could just sit and stare and admire the lights and forget about everything around me. hahahaha, anyway, caught michael jackson tribute at the indoor stadium last week with my family. joby rogers was awesome, he impersonates mj really well. trust me, go youtube him =)

i love mj!
i can never get bored of this video =DD

annie are you okay? are you okay annie?!
look at those moves. ZOMG!!

ps. of course i love b more =)

2009-08-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

Hello! On hiatus till December! :)

2009-08-14T20:36:00.005+08:00

In this world full of strangers,
I'm glad I've found someone like you.
Happy Fourth Month Ashley Chew Young. <3

With Loves,
Chris

2009-07-07T22:58:00.004+08:00

the first step you take is the longest stride

and so i fell sick today so i decided to be a responsible singaporean by going to the doctor's instead of risking passing the virus around by going to camp. spent the whol day resting at baby's house today. both of us have MC till tomorrow. oh man, I NEED TO GET WELL SOON! A's is COMING!! :((((((

and so, baby joined my family for dinner at crystal jade on sunday. i think my parents are okay with her, they are always nice =D baby was so nervous, i swear her face was literally RED! (=
mum bought her a dress, it was quite a formal dress, but i thought it looked good on her =D

and so, i'm feeling tired from all the medication now. goodnight world

the perfect words never crossed my mind
cause' there was nothing in there
but you

2009-07-02T17:30:00.007+08:00

it's been awhile since i've been to the movies. my last movie was 'drag me to hell' which was kinda sucky i thought. anyway, hopefully i'll be able to catch transformers with baby this coming sunday. haven't really got the time to enjoy these few days. and yes A levels is less than 120 days away =/

i think a picture really does speak a thousand words because i've been struggling to think of what to blog these few days. probably my brain is so filled with organic chemistry reactions, physics theories and mathematical formulas !$%^@$#@

I WANNA GET OVER AND DONE WITH A'S SO I CAN SPEND MORE TIME WITH CHRISTINA UNG LAYHOE AND DO SILLY THINGS LIKE PICKING DURIANS IN THE WEE HOURS OF THE MORNING OR CHILLAXING AT DEMPSEY HILL WITH A PINT OF BEN&JERRY'S (no, make that 2) OR BURNING THE MOTHER DOWN IN ROCKBAND2. ARGH!!!
phew, that felt much better (=

back to reality,
'Name all the functional groups precent in vitamin C'
:((((((

this is how you remind me of what i really am

2009-06-28T19:54:00.003+08:00

if today was your last day and tomorrow was too late, could you say goodbye to yesterday?

hello world, i'm sorry if my blog is mundane due to the lack of pictures. most of my pictures are in baby's phone and moreover my phone doesn't have a camera which greatly reduces the probability of me uploading any pictures here soon, i hope =/

i have this giganormous ulcer on my upper right lip which is super irritating and painful whenever i try to eat. but nonetheless, that didn't stop me from going to seoul garden with baby and her sister (= we were downing plates after plates of beef and chicken, COOLZXZXZ. but i still thought that the price was abit not worth; per person we paid about close to $30, with which we could easily find better quality food outside. but heck lar, we paid for the fun of bbq-ing the food =D a pity we didn't bring our camera along :(

late night mahjong session on saturday with the 3 ladies ( lh, her mum, bh ) and sorry to say this but i won them all (= i swear lh's mum is damn cute. HAHAHAHA.
btw, lh's dad lent us the car to eat at seoul garden. it's scary how he's entrusting me with his car even though we don't really speak much. bh said i should feel hornoured because he doesn't even lend it to his friends. honestly, sometimes it can be quite stressful but come to think of it, doesn't that show that he trusts me? =D i shall buy him some durian puffs soon

4 months; 16 weeks; 120 days till A levels. let the countdown begin.

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
with these broken wings i'm fallin'
& all i see is you
come please, i'm callin'
& all i need from it
hurry, i'm fallin', i'm fallin'

2009-06-22T17:45:00.002+08:00

there's alot to say but i don't know how.

BLANK OUT =/

& if this world runs out of lovers
we'll still have each other

2009-06-14T17:59:00.005+08:00

let's rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a hollywood horror

the weekends are breezing pass me, i can hardly breathe. i'm so looking forward to getting over and done with my A's. it certainly not easy to study while in the army. i realised that most of my blog posts are about me ranting of A's and army. but what to do? currently my world only revolves around these two and much less to say my baby (=
thank God dad wasn't angry with me over the accident, moreover he even gave me money to pay for half the damage. SUPER NICE OF HIM PLEASE =/ thank God for daddy, seriously (=

i need an understudy soon or i'll have to do oversea safety coverage which falls during the September/October period, which is irritatingly close to A's!! =x i mean i wouldn't mind going if i didn't have to take that stupid exam all over again since it's ALMOST like an all expenses paid trip. ROAR!!!

life is mundane for me right now. Dempsey hill double date soon. hilarie organiseeeeee!!!! quick quick quick!! (=
did i mention that my bus 89 broke down while on the way back from camp today? super suay manzxzxzxzx. and there was a huge jam along TPE to punggol. super suay X2. KNS

let them say we're crazy, what do they know
put your arms around me baby
don't ever let go
let the world around us, just fall apart
baby we can make it if we're heart to heart

2009-06-11T23:00:00.004+08:00

& i find it kind of funny
i find it kind of sad
the dreams in which i'm dying
are the best i've ever had
i find it hard to tell you
cos' i find it hard to take
when people run in circles
it's a very very
mad world

is this the moment where i look you in the eye?

2009-06-09T23:14:00.004+08:00

hello world, i'm currently home ALONE because my family is at phuket enjoying themselves now while i'm stuck in singapore. at least i have my books to keep me company (how comforting -.-). anyways, i had a minor accident last saturday while on the way home from flyer. to cut the long story short, i banged into the rear of a honda civic. it was only a slight touch and thank goodness my car didnt even have a scratch. as for the honda civic, there was a small dent and crack on his bumper. so there goes $400 to change his whole bumper $_$ at least it shows one thing, toyota mark X is stronger than honda civic (=
so anyway i haven't told my dad about it, intending to do so when they are back from their trip because i know how my dad can make a mountain out of a molehill so yeah, i just don't wanna spoil his holiday by making him worry. moreover there's nothing wrong with the car so there isnt any evidence of an accident which means i can dont tell him about it. BUT i guess i'll just let him know since i think i have to be responsible for my actions =/

thank goodness the weekend wasnt entirely spoilt by this misfortunate event. we went to sentosa on sunday, with baby and babies to be exact (sounds kinda weird LOL). had a great deal of fun but too bad the sun wasnt out. it was cloudy for most of the time so it was good for me because i'm already so dark or 'malay' as what baby always calls me -.-
chomp chomp with the remaning who didnt turn up for the beach trip after that. li mei is a crazy chilli freak and all the food she ordered with EXTRA chilli nearly killed me, thanks :( hahahhahah

baby's over at malaysia right now to visit her grandparents with her mum, sis and limei. so i'm officially home ALONE. she can't come online apparently the connection there sucks so yeah, :(((((((((((((( to that. CHRISTINA UNG LAYHOE, I MISS YOUUUUUUU. COME HOME NOWWWWW!! =/

p.s sorry if my blog is so wordy, baby havent sent me any pictures yet
p.p.s i love you

it's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
without saying a word, you can light up the dark

try as they may, they can never define
what's been said between your heart and mine

2009-06-06T23:32:00.000+08:00

ASHLEY IS DUMB
ASHLEY IS DUMB
ASHLEY IS DUMB
ASHLEY IS DUMB
ASHLEY IS DUMB

:(((((

2009-06-01T21:44:00.002+08:00

last friday my boss had an accident and he was caught for drink driving. my chief pti said he'll probably be out of army. HOW?!?! problem is if i get a new boss, i'm afraid he won't allow me to take my A's. jia lat!! :( shit man, hopefully he can still stay in the army or if i have a new boss, hopefully he isn't mean! cuz i'm nice (=

yesterday while i was driving dad, mum and darren to sentosa to collect some food before heading over to grandma's place (it was her birthday) for dinner, a surprisingly random conversation took place.

Dad: Son, i've already planned things for you to do while we're away.
Ash: What? (Tried to remain calm, hoping it's not another dreadful errand to carry out =/)
Dad: I got 2 tickets for you to take the flyer, bring your girlfriend along.
Ash: (Speechless)
Dad: You can bring her go have dinner then go flyer okay?
Ash: (Still speechless)

LOL! i think my dad's damn nice lar, although he can be quite a pain in the ass sometimes. but who's parents aren't right? UNFORTUNATELY, baby wouldn't be able to make it for our date this saturday cuz of some family function =/ but FORTUNATELY, the tickets have an expiry of until end of December. so yeah, we'd probably go on the 14th anyway (= did i mention? my whole family EXCEPT ME will be going for a holiday this weekend, PHUKET, with our childhood friend's family. i can't go because i have insufficient leaves and i have to save it for rainy days like (refer to TOP) if i have a new mean boss who doesn't let me take my exams etc etc :@
speaking of which, i haven't gone for a holiday in a whileeeeee. the next time i'd be on a getaway trip would probably be during _________. i'll leave that blank for now (=

ronald just reminded me that we've got less than 100 days to A levels. that's makes up what, 3 months? OMFG!! somebody shoot me please.

look into my heart, you will find
there's nothing there to hide
take me as i am, take my life

2009-05-24T22:48:00.002+08:00

HELLO! sorry have been really busy the past few days hence i don't really have the time to blog. there are so many trainings coming up in the month of May/June, coupled with all my night classes and tuitions. SUPER HECTIC! :(

anyways, we threw a surprise birthday party of limei. as usual, she was super expressive and funny. always the live wire and gatherings will never be the same without her around (= happy 17th limei, you're growing older and rounder =x
NEVER organise a bbq party at a condo because it's so freaking stupid. everything has to be packed up after 10 because the residents start to complain about the noise. it seems super meaningless to have a bbq pit if people can't hold functions until late at night. that's why i refrain from using my condo's pit. ROAR!!! we ended up at limei's place with the rest of the uncooked food, so hilarie started cooking in the kitchen. we played truth or dare and were made to do alot of stupid things. of course, by then we were all slightly high from the drinking. slept at around 4am.
all in all, i love birthday partiessss (=

Like the Tree needs the Earth
Like the Night needs the Moon
Like the Star needs the Sky
Like the Guitar needs the Tune
My world needs You

I MISS YOU

2009-05-17T23:05:00.002+08:00

stay overs at baby's house are super fun (= i enjoyed feeding the fishes and watch them as they tactically swim to their food. don't ask me why, but i have a natural tendency to observe this kinda things and not get bored. maybe, i just know how to appreciate things differently from others.

i'm really tired right now. played soccer with hilmi's friends at the kallang cage just now. haven't been playing soccer for awhile, so it was tiring for me.
OKAY, MY EYES ARE SUPER TEARY FROM THE TIREDNESS. I'M GONNA CRASH. GOODNIGHT (=

oh btw, man utd are the champions again. try again next season liverpool, you can keep saying that for the next 10 decades (=

i knew i loved you before i met you
i think i dreamed you into life

2009-05-15T23:49:00.003+08:00

yesterday was our first month. baby made me a nice video, damn sweet of her (= we had dinner together at her place. bought some indian rojak, roti john and chicken wings. commerated that day by nua-ing together on the couch and watching tv.

i read about an example of albert einstein's theory of relativity some time ago. it explains that when you are spending time with your lover for an hour, it will only seem like five minutes and if you spend five mintues standing by a hot fireplace, it will seem like a hour. i guess his theory is really true because i always tend to miss baby even though we just met each other and time passes super fast when we are together :(

okay, i shall update more tomorrow, kinda tired now and she's staring at me as i blog -.- come to think of it, tomorrow is dreadful saturday again :( SIAN BODOH!!!

maybe it's intuition
somethings you just don't question
like in your eyes, i see my future in an instant

2009-05-12T17:33:00.003+08:00

ronald taught me a new word while we were at AMK hub yesterday, 'SHART', which practically means someone who tries to fart but ends up shitting in his pants. i was kinda amused with that word. you see, SHit + fART = SHART. awesome (= it actually is a proper english word.

-Today, chris's phone died on her and while she was trying to call me with her friend's phone, i was hesistating to pick up on the other end because i thought it was someone calling from camp -.- but i did anyway (:
-Today, i finally sent all my jeans for alteration. so no more stopping and folding my jeans babyyyyyy (:
-Today, i woke up super early and decided to have breakfast with dad and mum (:
-Today, i saw my grandma tearing silently in the kitchen when i went over to pick my youngest brother up ):
-Today, i thought of YOU as i was walking past sweet talk and decided to buy your favourite milk tea to remind myself how lucky i am to have you as my baby (:

colin raye's 'love, me' never fails to remind me of my grandpa and whenever i thought of how broken my grandma was when he passed on, the lyrics will bring a sudden rush of emotions into me.
if you get there before i do
don't give up on me
i'll meet you when my chores are through
i don't know how long i'll be
but i'm not gonna let you down
darling wait and see
and between now and then
till i see you again
i'll be loving you
love, me

i shall go visit her more often when i have the time (:
off to the gym now! byeeeeee!

show me what it's like to be the last one standing
& teach me wrong from right
& i'll show you what i can be

2009-05-10T15:21:00.004+08:00

it was vesak day yesterday and i thought there wasn't any chemistry tuition because of the public holiday but ronald messaged me at the last minute and told me there was but i had already made appointment to have math tuition. WTF, oh wells, screw chem seriously. i still don't see how people can love chem, baby teach me how please? :(

so anyways, i didn't have any breakfast/lunch before tuition so i was practically starving throughout lesson. to top it off, my tuition teacher's maid was cooking some indian curry and it smelt so goooooood :/ made me feel like throwing my work down and walk to the kitchen to steal some. LOL! i had my first meal of the day at about 3.30pm, a quick one before i went to meet christina dear. singapore is soooooo small, nowhere to go. we took a train down to orchard and walked to paragon to check on this small camera pouch which i saw on the newspaper the other day. BUT! it wasn't there, i have no idea why :( after which, we took a stroll to heeren before ending up at somerset mrt. it was already about 6pm by then so we decided to train back to our area for dinner.

What's with guys wearing tight shorts with sunglasses nowadays?! omg, babe and i saw this one particular guy outside taka. he was walking with all his shopping bags when he suddenly stopped and posed for his friend to take a photo. SUPER GAY, SUPER DUMB, SUPER DISGUSTING and NO! YOU DON'T LOOK GOOD mr 'hey-people-check-me-out-i'm-like-the-hottest-shit-in-town' -.-'' dang, there were many more but he is just one of the more disturbing ones which left a lasting CRAP impression on me.

anyway, cut to the chase, went over to baby's house to study after dinner. in a desperate attempt to study my chem and her human anatomy, we were practically speaking to ourselves in the room. YES, 2 people in a room and NO, they are not speaking to each other but themselves. LOL! by the time i finished my chem bonding it was already 12 plus. decided to watch tv, but we ended up watching till 5am. baby's eyes were practically red from tiredness but she didn't want to sleep. okay, i love nua-ing on the sofa with chris and watching tv together, it beats going to town which is so packed and boring. more midnight tv sessions soon dear! :))

you're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be
& i don't wanna go home right now

2009-05-07T16:45:00.005+08:00

i was so sleepy today (probably the result of staying up to watch man utd thrash arsenal in the champions league semi-finals :)) that after i covered the safety for the ranger selection, i went back to the office and practically knocked out for an hour or so on the sofa.

met baby for a run yesterday. i have no idea why whenever i run (hard), there would be this excruciating pain just below my right chest, somewhere along the ribcage. super turn-off, super disturbing, super unmotivated =/ anyways, had dinner with her after that, shared a plate of hor fun and fried fish soup steamboat. i think the fish soup was kinda salty, woke up with a nasty throat today so i spammed myself with water throughout the day. it's feeling better now at least.

came home early today, gonna have physics (fee-sicks) tuition later. time is passing super fast, the weeks are flying by so quickly that saturdays are beginning to feel like they are next to each other on the calender. thank God this saturday is vesak day, so finally a day off from chem classes. it's really exhaustive to keep doing this every weekend :(

oh by the way, something really funny happened yesterday while we were doing our cool down walk at punggol park. there was a bat which was flying towards us at a very fast speed, chris screamed and i ducked because i was shocked. super awkward/unglam pose. damn, if only we had a camera then. HAHAHA! we continued walking out of the park along the road then suddenly,

C: dear, we haven't done our stretching yet (she was afraid because i told her people who don't stretch after their run will have thunder thighs, especially girls ;))
A: okay let's stretch now
C: huh?! sit here? so paiseh!
A: yeah, what's so paiseh? (proceeded to sit on the pavement beside the road and started stretching)

if i lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?

okay, i'm really hungry now and mum is cooking pasta for dinner tonight. OMG cabonara pasta, my fav :) i shall go check on her now, i meant the pasta =p

2009-05-06T23:28:00.003+08:00

babe made me card the other night with 2 wallet-sized photos and its sitting pretty in my wallet now. man, i just love those photos (=

i wanna blog now but i guess i'm really too tired. will update more tomorrow.

i don't believe that anybody feels the way i feel about you now

2009-05-03T22:36:00.000+08:00

SATURDAYS ARE :( DAYS
SUNDAYS ARE :) DAYS

didn't really blog much about yesterday but it was mundane as usual. had my chemistry marathon from 12-5 which was utterly boring. but surprisingly, i was able to catch what my teacher was going through. ronald said it's because of the regularity of my attendance which made me slowly adept to his teaching. it's getting better or at least i hope =/ the weeks are passing so quickly, like OH MY GOD! THE A's ARE IN LIKE 6 MONTHS TIME :( dang! could someone please make time travel slower and maybe i'll buy you ben&jerry's cookie dough ice cream?

i was reading through the website fmylife.com and i chanced upon this really funny short story, it goes, 'Today my 6 year old granddaughter was sitting on my lap playing with the rings on my fingers. After a moment, she pointed to a gold ring with many jewels and said, "when you die can i have that one?" FML'
HAHAHAHA! sweet, even a 6 year old girl knows how to be vain. i guess diamonds are really a girl's best friend -.-

caught a movie with dear at vivo today, 'horsemen', which was rather stupid. the gist of the show was mainly teenagers going around torturing themselves just to get thier parents' attention. too many loopholes which were left unexplained at the end. all in all, a stupid dumb movie and it gets a negative 2 out of 5 popcorns from me (= TOO BADDD!! our dress code for today was to wear a cap.

A: babe, do i look weird in a cap?
C: no why?
A: nothing, just curious. then do i look good in a cap?
C: yeah quite.
A: then why do i look good in a cap?
C: uh, i don't know?
A: !@^!$@%$!#@

LOL! oh yeah and i think i'm so gonna get baby a set of boxing gloves for her birthday next year because she loves punching me -.- don't tell me beating is love (sorry for that direct translation from chinese), i don't buy that. haha!

it's getting quite late now and i've gotta go to camp tomorrow. mid-year exams by MDIS are starting on 11 May, 1 day after mothers' day. damn sian but that's the only exam conditioning (so to speak) i'm gonna get. so, SUCK THUMB ASHLEY!

i'm the one who wants to be with you
deep inside i hope you feel it too
waited on a line of greens and blues
just to be the next to be with you

2009-05-02T23:22:00.000+08:00

i realised i'm a total nut for creating blogs. finally got this up and going thanks to layhoe's sister. there is still much to change but i'm rather drowsy from taking the flu medicine, moreover i bet i'm gonna need like half a day just to renovate this blog. so being the impatient ashley, i shall just fast forward all the way to my first post (=

yes hello world, i'm back to blogging after a year or so, ever since i stopped blogging at my older blog. okay, i think i was venting my emotions back then rather than writing about my life as any other blogger would. speaking of which, i would say it has been one hell of a rollercoaster ride ever since i graduated from CJ, from collecting my A level results, to enlisting in army, to having some messed up bone infection in my left thigh, to having my first operation (which was awefully painful), to the passing of my late aunt and grandfather. however, of all the things that went wrong, there were also some which were right. there was the a7x concert which took place 1 week after i was discharged from hospital. needless to say, being the gung-ho me, i went to the concert ON CRUTCHES =D i nearly died in the mosh pit but it was all worth it, a7x is just as awesome in their live performance. by God's grace, somehow, i've been given another chance to put my life back on track, to retake my A levels that is. i certainly hope i don't screw up again as i've done in the past. no, there is no room for error. moreover, there's the support of my family and friends, more importantly, there's you now.

it's really still amazes me how we started out to being together and i thank God for this because you're the only thing that's right in all i've done.

in the confusion and the aftermath,
you are my signal fire